Bye Year 2007!

Finally, the last post for this year! It's been a wonderful year and it's really nice to have encountered so many things though some of them were kinda tough.

For the approaching year, I really hope that everything will be fine. I have no idea what I'm embarking for the coming year. To be honest, I'm scared but I don't know why. I'm afraid that I'll lose something in my life.

Family and friends are assets that will never depreciate. They are the best assets in our life as their values will only appreciate, some say that they are too precious and priceless to be measured in monetary value. Yeah I do agree, but do you realise that the remaining time we can spend with them depreciate from day to day?

Since we were born, we are growing up from day to day. We are being taught in many approaches, in hope that we can live a life of our own without safety nets. We assemble with different people at different stages of life; and we get by with different people from time to time. For any reason, whether for the sake of work or studies, it's true that we'll have lesser time to spend with our love ones.

I crap a lot huh? Haha anyway the thing is, I really hope that all my family and friends (including pass-byers, strangers, everyone!) will be safe and sound, and the most important is to be blessed with happiness. That's my new year resolution. I hope that I'll be a better person from day to day and the year 2008 will be a blissful one!

The last thing I'm going to say before the clock strikes twelve; and before Cinderella runs off.. BYE BYE YEAR 2007!!

The First Time..

It's about the end of year 2007. Somehow I wished that I could linger in year 2007 and never proceed to year 2008.

It's been an exhilarating year. That's the best word to portray I guess. The year 2007 is the initial point of everything since the end of secondary school. I've done a lot of things that I've never expected. It's really awesome and I'm really glad that I was given a chance to be part of everything.

For the very first time..

I've been to National Service.
I've survived and still alive for the military training, obviously.
I've experienced how is it like, to be away from home.
I've learned that I couldn't live without my family and friends.
I've made my parents proud for the very first time.
I've attended interviews. Loads of them.
I've attended college for the very first time.
I've comprehended that I'm a big girl to be on my own.
I've doubted my path and I'm still doing so.
I've joined CGS, and I'm glad that I was chosen for sub-committee.
I've became one of the committees of CGS recently.
I've met a lot of great friends and I enjoyed being there.
I've been given a chance to join Encore.
I've been one of the Business Directors. (Love the name!!)
I've learned the realism of the real world out there.
I've undergone the process of making an event a success.
I've enjoyed college life though it's tough.
I've enjoyed every fraction of my life.

I've slipped but I have my family to grip on.
I've cried for quite a lot of times but I'm getting tougher every time.
I've vowed that, I'll be a better person from year to year.

Slipping

This semester doesn't seem unwavering to me. I've slipped. It's up to you whether to believe what I'm saying, but it's true.

I did not perform well enough in coursework tests. Final is around the corner and yet I don't feel convinced at all. I'm not aspiring to be the top student or the best of the bests. I'm not those type that want to be perfect in everything but..

I just want to be the best of me, best of Val.

I don't know why but I'm aloof from the word "gambateh". It doesn't carry anything but more and more pressure. Ridiculous right? This is me, the real me. In case you don't know, I'm not as good as you think. I'm not genius.

I'm slipping and I don't know what I should say. This coming exam is not what I've been anticipating for.

Is it that hard.. to be the best of me?

The Downpour

Sarah was the first one to reply my mail. Next is Teen Chun. Later on, I received a sms from Peter all the way from Singapore asking whether KL was raining or not because Singapore was raining. haha how cute he was! He even said that the clouds were moving to KL soon.

I wonder what is wrong with the weather these days? I'm kinda lazy to bring umbrella to college. Hahaa~

You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

*Hum*
*Hum hum*
*Hum hum hum*
*Humming away*

Last Day

James Blunt giving out his autograph for his "fans". hehe^^

Queuing up.. = =

Too excited to get his autograph.. LOL

(Where were the others?)

I looked kinda yellowish in the picture. Aww~ Wish I had SE W580 with me.. Haha~ Ignore me. =p

Today was the last class for this semester. See that guy standing behind me in the picture? He is James Blunt. Haha just joking! His name is Andy. He came all the way from Leicester, England. He is a soft-spoken guy which has a radiant smile on his face. His smile enlightens the room he walks in and not to mention, he's cute! Hehe~

It's really nice to have met you guys at British Council for this semester. (I'm saying the same thing over and over again at the end of every semester) Oh yeah by the way, Peter said that I was talking with American accent when he first met me and these days he realised that I'm more to Britain accent. I was like.. what?! Did I?

Haha anyway, love ya all so much! Thanks Andy! Take care and hope that you can pick up Cantonese well in Hong Kong later. Guys, keep in touch ya.. =)

I Wish I Was

Whatcha' doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus] If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait...I already am)

Saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus] If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait...I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

Kepada Cikgu Suzana

Kepada Cikgu Suzana,

Dah lama tak bertutur dalam BM, kekok sikit. Rase semacam aje..pelik. Ade perkataan yang tak dapat diperkata, macam nak "replace" dengan BI. Maaf ya~

Dah setahun. SPM tahun ni dah berlalu, Wan teringat detik-detik getir semasa menghadapi peperiksaan tahun-tahun lepas. Tempat ini merupakan tempatku berteduh. Adelah.. kenangan-kenangan manis kat sana. =)

Baru-baru ni, mungkin sebab tekanan dan terpaksa bersengkang mata setiap malam. Ada kalanya Wan mengangis. Entah kenape, mungkin sebab dah lama tangisan tergenang kat kelopak mata. Haha, macam budak kecil aje..

Kebelakangan ni, Wan dah belajar banyak perkara. Cikgu tau tak, ade perkara yang kita tak dapat capai walaupun berusaha sungguh-sungguh. Tapi kite tidak putus asa kan? Realiti tidak seperti yang kite jangkakan, ia amat menakutkan.

Wan rindu tersangat kat cikgu-cikgu kat sana. Teringin nak jumpa Cikgu Jaabar sangat, sedih bila terdengar cikgu dah bertolak ke New Zealand semalam. Setiap kali bila Wan hadapi masalah dengan pelajaran, kotak fikiran Wan akan melayar kembali ke masa dahulu. (terlupa pulak perkataan "vulnerable" dalam BM..)

Memang gembira bila jumpa dengan cikgu hari ni. Riak wajah cikgu yang memancarkan kegembiraan telah menenangkan hatiku. Terima kasih cikgu..

Wan janji akan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, takkan menangis macam budak kecil lagi. Wan akan menjadi tabah. Terima kasih cikgu!!

Kasih daripada Wan

End of Encore!

Hey Cornelius, our logo is too nice already and I couldn't resist for not putting it in my blog. Hope you don't mind yeah~^^

Somehow I miss Wednesday, I miss Encore! I miss Encore's meeting at L106 and Canteen 2. Strange..but I don’t know why. =)

It’s really amazing how things had worked out eventually. The night we’d been anticipating for such a long time finally came true. Well yeah there are some flaws but still we made it through.

What are you doing in Encore? Do you sing in choir society?
Why are you appearing at almost everywhere? – by Miko

There was a week when everything collided, in a disquieting manner. Career Fair, Encore 2nd P&P, coursework tests and assignments. It was tremendously tense when everything clashed. I felt like collapsing during that period. I know that it wasn’t a remarkable epoch that ought to be remembered. (Well most people think that making fuss of something ridiculous is nonsense)

To spectators, it doesn’t carry any weight. It might be unfathomable and silly, but it means a lot to me. Really thanks to everyone for always being there for me. If I were to have a chance to turn back the time wheel, I think I can perform better. You know, whenever people talk about Encore, I feel honoured to be part of the committee. Really hope that Encore will etch in everyone's mind and Encore will rise again next time. Go Encore!

We want more! We want Encore!

Anyway, let bygones be bygones. It is not possible that time can recoup the past but there is always a chance.. which is to grow up and be the better person. =)

Encore! 2007

We want more! We want Encore!

The ultimate finale of Encore Night was taken place yesterday. When the emcees proclaimed the ending of Encore 2007, everyone was elated in euphoric state. Well done everyone!!

I remembered that I was utterly surprised when I received a message about Encore. Since then, a lot of things altered. I didn’t expect that I would involve in Encore. As I wander back time, the journey was exhilarating and as well as grueling.

It aint easy to hold an event. A barely discernible slip-up may blot the event no matter how superb the event is. Everyone is fundamental to make an event a success. Especially financial constrain, nothing seems possible without financial support.

In the eyes of spectators, it is easy and fun. People can’t see and comprehend how hard it is to organise an event. At first, I was very naive to deem things are okay as long as we work really hard. But I was wrong, in house panorama was multifarious and it was an arduous journey. But somehow, I’m glad that I’m part of the team. =)

It's weird but the tears started to soak my eyes.. haha silly me! It’s really nice to have met ya all. And thanks my parents, my friends, everyone! Really thanks!

Thanks Encore! I love Encore!

- Added -
There you go, singing champion of Encore! 2007, "Sole"! This is one of the songs they sang and they were awesome!

My Dirty Little Secret

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret~~
lalala~

Btw I love that song! Hehe.. Well there's something deep inside my mind but I don't know whether should I tell or not.

Many people asked me, what keeps me in the brisk state and being vigorous all the time? Am I in love with someone?

Well I don't know. His existence evokes the spirit of consciousness from my deep slumber, whenever he is around I'm full of life. I know it's weird, but I just have the special feeling for him. It is like torning me apart when he's not around. People says that falling in love is like being enchanted, well I guess I'm a person who is in deeply in love, with him.

Gosh! Now I start to miss him already.. even in the wee hours!! OMG.. my mum is going to kill me for this..

SHOULD I TELL HIM?

I DON'T KNOW.. BUT..

I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE..

I..

I LOVE YOU..

NESCAFE 3 IN 1..

Photo Shooting

The photo shooting was taken place in a photo studio. I was just.. you know..playing around with the camera after I went home. Hehe.. =)

"Val, why are you wearing like this? Presentation?"
"Err..umm..actually it's for.. *sigh* Yeah presentation.."

I don't know what to say. Am I supposed to say I was going for photo-shooting? well then they'll ask the reason for going photo shooting and what the whole thing is about. Then it's going to be a lot of yada yada stuff about "Encore!" (Btw, do you know what is "Encore!"?)

I went for photo shooting with the whole business team of "Encore!" event. (Actually just three of us only) Well the first thing we have to go through before being snapped by the lens of the camera is hair-do. The hairdresser (what do you call them btw?) of the IMP saloon did something with curling and straightening my hair.

Later on, before photo shooting, we went for make up. Can you imagine, make up on self basis? it's like.. you have to do the make up thing on your own. Just pick a brush or something and D.I.Y! I didn't do anything with my face but my friends did. (lol..=.=)

Mind you, I'm not really accustomed with make up stuff. (Yes, of course I'm a girl) Hehe.. well the eyeliner and the eyes stuff didn't work on my eyes but turned out to be panda eyes like being punched. (haha..=.=) Anyway, some of the pictures turned out very nice though I'm not photogenic. It was really fun and hilarious! =p

When I reached home, my mum gazed at me with her mouth widely opened. 0.O

"OMG..What happened to you?"
"Mum.. I.. err..presentation.."

Being a MC

"Mum, tomorrow I'm going to be MC for tomorrow's career talk."
"What MC oh? You sick meh?"

In the fraction of seconds, I leaned behind a little and a "huh" slipped off my mouth without going through my mind. (mind you, I was absent-minded) Mum, you are really cute la..

It was the first time for me being MC and everything was utterly panicky. (hey mum, it's master for ceremony lar~) My hands were trembling and my voice was shaking. My mind was quivering like tremor upheaval and I was bloody nervous. I screwed up a little initially, in front of the familiar faces. Hiaz..

I was told that my intonation and accent should be more "ceremonial and firm". I was like..huh? I can't really picture myself being so official like some sort of bureaucrat. I mean, can you? Maybe that's why I don't really like formal stuff. (Business school student, huh?)

I plowed through everything in the end. As I summon up the pieces of the humiliating moments, I feel like digging up a hole and sheathe my head deep inside forever. Anyhow it was really fun and I feel like doing it again. Hehe..

So there it goes, my very first time being MC!

Do Not Press

Thank You

There are times when I feel like relinquish the weighty load on my back. I couldn't breathe with the add-on weight on my back. But then, as I contemplate giving up, the tears started to dampen the fortitude of mine..

Feigning that everything is okay is what I've been doing these days. But still.. The camouflage of mine betrayed me no matter how hard I tried to conceal. I felt exhausted with the crammed schedule, mentally and physically..

I know that grumbling will not help anything, but sometimes I just feel like utter something out of my mind. I would like to apologise from the bottom of my heart for my clumsiness that made everyone worry about me. I'm sorry.. I don't know what to say, but thank you all for always being there for me.. Really thanks..

I'll be tough.. Val.. big girls don't cry!!

It's Business

It's not personal. It's business.

It's down to earth. No cloak and dagger stories or any surreptitious relationships. It's business.

Of different notions, we have to defend ourselves sequentially to survive in the vying and callous business world. It's a world of merciless, and we have to knock down others to live on, despite our friends or foes. After ruthless squabbles, we have to get along with them again after all the dramas, which I think is an intricate enigma that ought to be solved..

Awesome huh? It's complicated and inexplicable, on how people deal with tasks and people at the same time. It's a world of precarious and disgust, and we might have to slough off personal feelings when it comes to business. "Business" sounds like a big word huh? (I'm not even a quarter of diploma yet..lol =.=)

Works in any kind, homeworks, assignments or tasks. Yeah that's what I mean. When it comes to tasks, everyone is being egocentric because of own responsibility. No one cares if you're a nice person or not, or whether you are able to cope with it or not. If you slip, you are about to be hooted down..

Yes, i know the rules. Still, I feel that realism of the world out there is terrifying. I don't want to be idler or parasite, sitting around and doing nothing. I don't mind to be burden with tasks and I'd be really happy even it's a small and weightless task. I just want to be part of the team even though without any reputation.

Frankly, I don't know if I can contribute anything as I have no familiarity in these before. But I have vowed that I'll not take it as an excuse for absolution anymore. I do have something right, that is the tenacity of sincerity. =) well I don't know if it helps. I have promised myself that I will try my best to cope with the hasty pace, no matter how hard it is going to be. Gambateh Val.. you can make it..

I've been trying really hard to cope with things these days. It's hard.. but trust me, I'm not a slacker..

Naive

I was thinking, am I the one who think too much? Or am I too naive to deem things are too simple as it seems?

As I unveil the cloak of camouflage of mine, I realised that things are tangled with knotty ties. The eloquence of mine started to anesthetise without any sensation..

New Semester

I gazed aghast at the timetable with my mouth widen, and muttered Maggie Wheeler's favourite line in the comedy series "Friends".

Oww.. (3secs)
My.. (3secs)
Gorrrrrrrddd..!!!

I arched my eyebrow and heaved sighs as I checked the timetable. My spirits were evoked as I recalled those sleepless nights doing tutorials, coffee before lecture classes, moaning about the subjects. (you know which one I mean)

Craving for things to be fine for the next day is what I do every single day. yeah i'm a bit stressed out these days dealing some matters. Still, I'm okay and I enjoyed every moment of it. Hectic schedule yet enjoyable! It's not going to be easy but I'll make every endeavor to strive for the best! Gambateh Val!! =)

Timetable is out, and adieus to semester break! It's time for hectic schedule again. Let bygones be bygones. It's a new semester guys!

- UPDATED -
It's like a poetry game and you have to write a slang poem that ryhmes. Matthew started the game first. So here's mine..

It's time for our studies
No more playing with teddies
It's time to bid adieus
No more napping with blankies

It's a whole new semester
No more subjects that'll bother
Or we'll burn the notes with luster
Perhaps during Chinese New Year

Timetable sorted out with much opposition
Irritated and moaning with much objection
As whole new semester set in motion
It's a new semester with anticipation!

- UPDATED AGAIN -

Longing outcome to be impressive
As a tyro like me amid the apprentice
With nothing much but a crapping perspective
As you and me adore poetry by own respective

Forget about En Mohd Sabri
As ethic stuffs bothered me like a flea
So the notes were burned with much glee
In the flame of liberation to set me free

There's no escape or leak
Nor the subjects are going to be meek
We'll kick'em off to reach the peak
Well guys.. I'll see you next week!

Why BLOG?

Your blog is the worst blog I've ever seen. *nodding head and sigh wearily* No traffic, no money generation , no reader, nothing! There's no reason for why you should blog, just shut down lah!

I've been blogging since 2 years ago, it initiates with the curiosity of mine. It was a trend which was very cool to own a blog, that was what I thought 2 years ago. (My previous blog) I installed complicated codes and it was a mess! Then finally I decided to start a new blog and keep it simple.

Throughout the years, I've learned many lessons through blogging. I realized that blogging is not just about keeping up with the Joneses or getting anything in return though I'm really envious of those great bloggers who earn a lot of money through blogging. (mind you, those Ads in my blog are not generating anything) To me, it's a process of growing up and being a better person from day to day. I really appreciated people who read my crapping blog, a big thank you to you all. =)

A friend of mine told me about this contest. The contest with prizes sponsored by 5xmom who runs the Make$ Money$ blog and she is contributing back to the blogging community with the money she earned. She will be giving away monthly prizes if this contest is popular. Please encourage your readers and friends to participate as well.

There are a lot of great blogs out there and her blog is one of my favourite that I've bookmarked. I believe that if we blog with a heart of sincerity, the readers would be able to feel the genuineness of the entries. It's not about winning the contest, because that's not the main thing about blogging. I'll blog about this, even without the competition.

You don't know me, well you don't have to. I'm just a typical blogger that has nothing much but a crapping blog.

Hey check out my blog!! I've posted something!!" I'm not saying that it's wrong, just that it'snot my style. I love to keep everything under the wraps. I'd never promote or solicit support to prop up my blog. You know, like putting up the blog link on lamp posts, walls (everywhere that is conspicuous) and publicizing as if seeking for ballot in election campaign.

My blog is the reflection of my true-self, of what I have stumbled in my daily life. Well is not like hullabaloo every single particular, but summarization of what I've learned and sharing it with other people. Blogging is like babbling my crapping thoughts, journalizing the encounters in my life and to be the better person I could be.

The reason why I never give up my blog (though no money generation, no traffic) is because I want to trace what I've learned in my daily life. I know they're gibberish and unfathomable, but it means a lot to me. I hope that someone would benefit something from it. Well, one is enough.

Every blogger has diverse intentions, styles and perceptions. There's no explicit answer for why one should blog, but there's something in common among bloggers. That is, bloggers have enthusiasm towards blogging and simply love to blog with gusto. =)

Sleepless Night

Tears of misery
Soaked the pillow
Eclipsed the sight of hers

Tears of fractured soul
Resentfully swamped her eyes
For she tried recklessly to curb
The rebellious wet in her eyes
Apart from the throbbing pain

The saturated bed
Invaded her silent weeps
Ripping her in aching turmoil
Feeling bottled up and hopeless
She pleaded for pardon and acceptance
For she knew, it'll not help anything
But hurting people she cared
Still, she hoped for being accountable
For all the sore she wounded
Without a word of protest

As gloom obscured the radiance
She sniveled in swelled lips
Yearning for something ridiculous
She couldn't forgive herself
For the grievance she caused
If only she was given a chance
Being liable for the people she cared

It was a sleepless night
For nobody would know
The chronicle of her solitude

Unlikely Delusion

Awaken from the slumber
Unfolding her eyelids she awed
With tears streaming down her face

Naive and being susceptible
The unacquainted hues of hers
Started to fade and prickle with ache
As she noticed the bruise was no longer
A dream she hoped that wasn't true

Clinging to her gullible mind
She was too naive to believe that
True intentions are always disguised
In a manner that is too profound
Beyond her naive grasp

As she heard the ponderous tread
Her heart fluttered in trepidation
Throbbed with an empty heart
In hope she could sort things out
Amid the best solution of hers

Guilt pulsed her
Without a sense of forgiveness
As she felt a twinge of her conscience
She reproved her amiable disposition
For being such a foolish person

Suffocating in affliction
Her tears shrouded in mirage
In a dream she hoped wasn't true

As a Whole

Being egocentric is not wrong in any kind, nor correct. We live in a life of ours and we tend to think on our standpoints that are very unlikely in other's shoes.

When we are wounded, we would blame everyone that comes across our mind. We'd blame God, for no one has the foggiest notion of what god plans for us. we'd blame other people, for not being understanding enough what we have been through. we blame everyone but never ourselves because we are the protagonist as we have our rights to believe what we think is right.

We are insatiable, don't we? We will never be pleased of what we have but we will definitely groan about what we do not have. That's what that'll stimulates us to attain something we are yearning to have. yeah well, acquiring something is good but it has to be done in moderation..

When there is a smudge on our shirt, do we discard our shirt? Certainly we'll buy all sorts of bleach to remove the dirt off the shirt. Think it as a whole, we do not snub our shirt for a little dirt on it right. (omg, what I'm talking about?) okay what I mean is, making fuss of small matters is superfluous. If we do so, we will not have enough time to cherish what we have.

Ravenousness will never make us feel better. If we haggle over little matters, we will lose things we have. =)

Time to Rouse

I’m trembling with the emergency brake in my palms. I’m accelerating on the one-way railway, taking the track at the peril of my future.

I’m wavering in hesitation, sighing in gawkiness. Many people said that i’ll be fine because i’m a smart girl that will never daunted by obstacles. (still i don't know how true it is) I even tried to sway myself that I’ll be fine. I’m tough for everything..

A good friend of mine told me about being resolute about our decision. Once a decision is made, we have to bear the consequences with great fortitude. You know what, i’m really thankful for having a great friend like her. But somehow I felt so bad about myself and ashamed of what I’ve done. (Val, shame on you!!) I mean, what on earth was I doing, faltering about everything?

She’s right. I'm slipping. I’m drifting apart from the dream I used to have. No more sweet tales with happy endings. It’s time to rouse from hundred years of sleep of mine..

Go..Further!

If you ask me whether I'm bemoaning about the miracle-could-be the I used to have, my answer would be undeniably "YES".

It's like.. you were standing close to the goal of yours and you're excited about it. Suddenly you slipped up and fell down. You felt the ache but still you tried to seize everything you could. No matter what you have attempted, still you were chucked with a red card. In the trance and you heaved a sigh as the thing you manage to grip is a hallucination of your dream.

Actually.. I don't wanna sit for any exams nor interview right now though a university in US told me that I could stand a great chance. Many people persuaded me, but still I'm not going for it. I'm sorry. i just can't afford another one. I mean, it's over and i'm over it. thank you everyone. =)

Hey don't worry, i'm doing really fine now. Though college life is a lil hectic and demanding (sometimes), but still I enjoyed every moment of it! *hands up for campus life* I experienced and learned a lot of things, and discovered a little about my true self. I love it! and I love my friends! You guys are inspiration and stimulation for me to go further. (sorry yeah kinda sickening huh?=p)

You guys out there, wherever and whoever you are, you have my blessings. take good care of yourself and make every endeavor to the best yeah! =)

Holiday!!

I should be acclaiming MERDEKA like fanatical fool as if Malaysia won the World Cup. It's time to bid adieu to the bogey of examination. Time to put everything into the flame of liberation! Happy holiday everyone!! You know, i was desperately anticipating for this momentous moment like for ages and centuries. (well since first day of first semester..)

It's odd. I can't feel the merdeka spirit. I think i need something to uplift the spirit, something to heat up the flame. Choices. Each of them lead to different outcomes and consequences. and yeah, we have to forfeit something in return. Nasty rules huh? I hope i were granted more time to do everything that is cited in my to-do-list. I need time, truly and frantically.

I have a bad feeling that the crammed schedule of mine will clash with one another. well hopefully my six sense will go off beam this time. Actually i'm quite lost right now, not knowing what to do though i had been told about it. Maybe i'm not really used to it yet, or somehow. I really hope everything will be fine.

The forthcoming schedule will be really hectic and I might need loads of oxygen tanks. (for breathing purpose..hehe) Gambateh, Val! =)

Cool Capacity

The image looks like a vague smudge, but it looks okay if you click in and view. It's probably a few days already since the Hotmail upgraded the system. Looks cool huh?

You know, the meter of the storage capacity (what do we call that? indicator?) has never exceed 5% when I had 1GB storage. Now with 5GB storage, I wonder if it is going to take forever to go beyond 10 %? haha~ which is a good news! I can store loads of love letters.. =p

The previous one.. (1GB only..)

I have other of accounts like Yahoo and Gmail. (some I don't even remember the name) I'm not really certain whether they are still accessible as I abandoned them since a long time ago. Kinda redundant to have so many accounts don't you think so? (yalah tanganku gatal sikit masa itu) well actually i'm quite sluggish to sign in every account each time I check mail. And it's quite tedious for others to mail me when they have to send the mail to each of my mail account to ensure that i have received the mail.

thanks to my laziness, I have only one account for everything. Friendster, MSN, email, and all sorts. and I love Hotmail even more right now because of the storage capacity, though i didn't use the MySpace thing. Is not about the storage thing because there are others with bigger storage, it's the generalization of everything that counts. Oh I love Hotmail!! =)

Pheww.. luckily Val didn't abandon me. Please don't discard me! I promise I'll be good, I promise!! (Quoted by Blogspot)

Getting a Car

Val, do you drive?
Well, not really..
Do you have your license?
Yeah I have my driving license, but I don't drive.
Huh??? =.=

Lucy said that she'll have gotten a Kembara by the end of this year. Her boyfriend will be getting her a four wheel drive. I marveled a while as a Kembara came to my mind. well for a driving newbie like me, i don't really want to drive a huge car like that. I fancy small little car like.. kancil, or my dream car, Smart car! (SmartForTwo is so cute!!)

*dreaming* *dreaming* *dreaming*
(i'm melting away...)

Ahh..this car is superb! I pleaded my dad to get me one and his response was "haiya drive the Iswara first laa..like your brother like that, bump a few times first." but you know what? the Iswara is twice longer/bigger than the Smart car. (how do we measure har?) and of course, Smart car is simply gorgeous and stylish!

I tell you what. Smart car is meant for people in the market like you. Don't know how to parking, hold sterling also scare one. you don't know the joy of driving lahh~ (Quoted by my dad. bapa borek, anak rintik huh? =.=)

Okay, back to what I said just now. Lucy and I burst into laughter when we prated about her future car. Her boyfriend very cute laa..

Well he said, driving a four wheel drive is better. So I told him to get me StormRider instead, so that i can "soar" on the road. Rather than Kembara, StormRider sounds nicer for a four wheel drive right?

Friday Night

The splendor of a moon lit night on the bank of the Lucerna River reminisces me of the nostalgia moments with Guilietta Guicciardi. As forbiddance pulls us apart, I have qualms about letting her go. Do human beings who love one another control love or is love controlled by higher authority?

Before any relationships starts, we need affirmation. Without them, we create phantoms without heads. I'm a phantom who is in love. The distinct of melody reminds me of thou, translating our love to a song of nocturne. As the loneliness sweeping in, I enslave myself to the sonata. The score is played in C sharp minor, a song of tranquil, a song of lullaby, and a song of our love.

The moon bathes the bank, tapping out a rhythmic tempo, leading me to the broken heart. As the notes penetrated my soul and filled me with sentimental notes, my fingers pull the melancholy notes together with gentle assurance. Notes echo me with unspoken words, hovering in pain and agony. For no one would know, the story of my woes, the everlasting love of ours.

Under the gleaming moonlight, you could hear a song of languidly beautiful and heart-wrenching nocturne...Moonlight Sonata.

Yes. I can read your lips and i know what you're trying to say. I wrote it. It was kinda long time ago when we were told to write this as homework. I remembered crapping this and the feeling is kinda like how i feel right now. yeah well sometimes when i got a lil inspired and i might crap something like this. don't get it wrong okay, i'm not that kinda quixotic with those the love and eternity stuff. Actually I felt a lil flinched whenever i read what i had crapped. (don't you feel so?)

Friday night..my favourite night. (is not like i'm going for clubbing larr..) It's a night that is typically just for me to settle down everything after a long week. i simply love the feeling of friday night. In the midst of tranquility, i love the feeling of sipping the scorching peppermint tea of mine, indulging the mellifluous voice of Shayne Ward, crapping some stuff.. the feeling is so great..

Sometimes i just don't know what i'm crapping about, gibberish i think. but it's really great to crap some stuff and maybe that's why i love blogging. It's like summarizing the encounters of life and sharing it in a cache of ours.

hmm..that's all for tonight. have a wonderful weekend and gambateh ya for our last paper next week!! =p

I'm not techie

Wrong already lah. Who teach you to write like that one? Confirm wrong lah. (Quoted by my bro)

I screwed up my BITA exam today. (is not that I'm going to fail lar..) Actually it wasn't that bad, just not really well for me. I wasn't really prepared though I crammed really hard. I did study, but the stuff I crammed didn't come out and I don't really understand those wires stuff. >.<

I'm a technophobe. I mean, how am I supposed to know all these technical stuff? Literally stated in the notes but it's hard to understand. I mean, for certain topics. However there were times for me to shine also, crapping stuffs! haha~ will keep my fingers crossed. =)

And yeah, it's perfectly normal for us to communicate in "that" way. That's how we care for each other. =) Just ignore us, haha~ We are different. He is good in computer stuff but I'm not. Everyone is different and so as our aspiration. Some people think that passing exam is like winning the Oscar Award, some of them want to be the best among the best, like scoring perfect score. I don't want to be on the top lar, I just wanna.. be in the between.

Still, I was kinda "muka tembok" and I asked him again. "But I wrote so many worr, not even a lil of sympathy marks?"

You keep on dreaming lah. Where got people wrong already still ask for marks one.. Haiya how you study one?!
(He said curtly. =.=)

The Eyes

It's like the eyes of the tabloids, once they marked you, you are expected to do something really awesome. Like something that'll state your name in the book of Genius World Record. They gaze at you with anticipation, so you better don't screw up or you'll end up everything miserably. Watch out, they have eyes on you.

"Nah~ if you can't make it, who else can? Don't be so humble lahh.." That's what people tend to say when you tell that that you're not as good as they think. It's not about being modest, it's more like a kind of expectation and you're likely doing things flawless. Which means, you have to be wary of your steps or else you'll fall in humiliation.

"I'm even worst than you, you know that?" (sounds familiar? =p) Everyone is different and we all have our own clarification on how we evaluate what is good and bad. and yeah, our competence too. For some people (like me lar) , it's likely impossible for them to attain something which may be a piece of cake for others, no matter how hard they strive for it. It's not a shame in any kind because no one is perfect, be proud of who we are because we are who we are. =)

Sometimes I rather do things anonymously, to evade the possibility of being caught by the eyes. haha~ anyway.. I really hope that I'll not screw up everything..

Checklist (I was bored)

Yes, I know. Exam is just around the corner. I'm just checking my list. Exclusively my style! (yeah I'm procrastinating right now) Actually, some of my friends got influenced by me and eventually they got themselves the same stuff too. haha~

Item 1. Peppermint tea. (CHECKED)

Imagine that you're studying in an air-corn room, and this is what that's going to keep you warm. Oh did I mention peppermint? Simply the best!! =D

Item 2. Five of my highlight pens (CHECKED)

Without them, I rather don't study at all. Well yes, I highlight almost the whole book. I love the colours! You know what my sister commented on my notes?
"Yerr..so colourful~ Very ugly laa" 0.O

Item 3. My pens (CHECKED)

Well you have the highlight pens, you also need pens to write right? Yeah those colours my favourite!

Item 4. Notes, Ruler and a tissue. (CHECKED)

*Notice the tissue* Don't get it wrong, the tissue aint for me, it's meant for the.. (I don't know how to explain lar, you'll know when you see the way I use it)

Basically that's what I need to study. Can you imagine me, holding those stuff in the crammed lecture hall? Ahh..I look so stupid. But who cares, we are there to learn right? One day if you notice someone with those tools above, don't walk away because it's definitely me. Drop me a HI okay? (Except for the peppermint tea lar, I won't bring that to college)

I'm not a freak lar, though I do look quite nerdy. All the best everyone out there! =)

Merdeka!

Forget about Hubugan Etnik, disregard exams just for today~ let's whip up the celebration of your country's independence!

Celebrating 50th years of nationhood, Malaysia has entered a new phrase in the history. 50 years you know? Our country was just a tiny, unnoticeable dot on the globe. That was when our forefathers fought for our country's independence and everything that's cited in our history text book. (I was not born yet, not even in the process)

"August 31? Yippee holiday!" That was what I used to think when I was a little. I had no idea how momentous the day of our country's independence was. and yeah, the word "merdeka" signifies the liberty after examination. I wonder, how is it like when our country rejoices the anniversary of independence. Is it just like how we feel after examination?

Year in and year out, it has been quite a lot of concerns and inevitably people is still hyping the buzz these days. and yeah, it's not a fame in any kind. There have always been a lesson after the tales, which are the reflections of our triumphs. Maybe that's what that made us a better nation. You know, Malaysia Boleh!

Malaysia aint flawless. We came together as a blend of diverse races, ethnics and perspectives. Chauvinism, discrimination and fallacy are bound to happen. Think of the good thing about Malaysia, we are who we are. We have our manglish, our mamak stall, our teh tarik.. That's our forte! =)

We are same same lah.*practicing my manglish*

I'm so going to pass my Hubungan Etnik examination next week. hahaha..

8TV Trip

We took part in a trip to 8TV station, which was organized by Accounting Society. It was really a nice trip! To get to know the broadcasting world out there, was really a great experience.

Media Prima Station. Do you know that Media Prima plays a significant position in dominating the media world? They have TV3, NTV7, 8TV, TV9, Hot FM, Fly FM, etc. Awesome!!

When you step in the building, they have loads huge plasma TVs at each angle and you just can't miss them! You can watch the programmes on the spot. All you need to do is to grab a chair~

Live from Hot FM! It's just a few steps away from the main entrance. You know, much like an aquarium because every pass-by-er can see what is going on inside. Check out those computer stuff (what do you call those?) Really cool~

This..err.. this is the main unit system. Don't underrate those wires and plugs wor, without them the whole broadcasting stuff is nil.

Can you guess where is this? Looks familiar right? Is it Mini Cooper?

Bingo~ that's right! Live from "8864"! Yeah we are on air.. the car is really cute!

Our cute lecturer, Mr Soo and us on air! Check out the sign..

mummy, I'm on the tv!!

Supprisingly, both "8864" and "Quickie" studio are combined! The opposite of the "8864" set is for the "Quickie". It's not really big as it seems on TV.. really crammed. And how do the hosts bounce up and down in such a small space? Like what Gary Yap or Phat Fabes and Rina used to do. Incredible!

I forgot to switch on the flash. But it turned out very nice right..artistic! I love the picture behind us! Arty~

Now with the flash on. The picture is so nice!! Actually, it's just a board. How special it is!

We managed to grab Mr Soo into the picture as well. He is so so cute!! Hehee..

This is what we get as souvenir. Really nice! But I think, what we have learned weighed much more that what was given to us.

Happy Ending..