Friday, April 10, 2009

When I Grow Up

When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene
(By Pussycat dolls)

As I count my birthday candles, I realised that life is more complicated as it seems. I start to think what, why, how, things happen. I start to question, the rationale behind everything.

When I was a kid, I thought my dad owns a bank/ATM machine.


My perspective towards life was easy back then.

When I grow up, I realised there are constraints that forbid us to move on. Whether it is pleasing or not, we have got no choice. Sometimes it's not about pleasing ourselves, we don't have precedence over it.

When I grow up, I realised making decision is bloodcurdling as if it's a macabre. To make a decision we need guts, to move on and to bear with it. Also, taking into consideration our commitments, whether our decision that will lead towards a better living.

When I grow up, I don't wish to grow up.

3 comments:

freedom23 said...

hey.. don bear it all wif urself ler.. i'm always here 4 u wan ma..
i'll always listen 2 u.. help u.. be wif u always wan o..
watever tat comes in ur path of growing up, juz accept it wif an open heart..
even if it's a tough n complicated n undesirable wan, face it wif a smile n eventually things wil b solved..
u hav a lot of frens around u.. they can enlighten ur burden even if it's onli as small as sand..
share wif them.. don hide everythin inside of u..
most importantly, don lose urself n live hapily wif everyone around u..

Lin said...

i m one of them!!! yeah!!! ^.^

Val said...

Thanks you both. Appreciate that a lot. =) I'll be fine, I promise.