Keep Fingers Crossed, and Move On

I know it a waste of money.
I know that I don't stand a chance.
I know that it will not change anything in the end.

You might say I'm a "kiasu" person, any how you like. I'm going for it even though it's a total waste of money and effort. And you might say I'm being insatiable of what I have now.

I'm not those type of people who are avid for the first place or anything. I know that perfect 4.0 does not attest one will succeed, neither did I put high hopes on it also. But somehow it doesn't feel good, a sense of ache inside.

I kept on telling myself that I'm prepared to accept it but it's hard, really. I want to concede my comedown with more assurance, to sound equitable for myself and my efforts. I know that it's a complete superfluous but I'm going for it anyhow.

Maybe I'm just trying to soothe myself to feel better..
Maybe I'm just being "kiasu"..
Maybe I'm just sucks no matter how hard I tried.

Doesn't Feel Good

Enough with the shopaholic stuff.

No more Sophie Kinsella's book, have put veto over the chic-lit books and get my life on track again.

Feigning gaiety and optimism is not a choice but a must. Few beeps, few messages in my inbox asking the same question. How nice huh? I heaved a long sigh and replied the messages with the least merry I have over my face.

It's not like the world is going to break apart you know. It doesn't feel good. I'm pretty sure that it doesn't feel good.

The Secret Dreamland of a Shopaholic

Finished reading The Secret Dreamland of a Shopaholic.

I'm really into chic-lit books recently, love'em! Sophie Kinsella's book are amazing! I would recommend this to everyone out there, even guys. Incredibly funny and humorous. Definitely a good one if you need a good laugh. =D

Two solution when you're facing financial trauma, Cutting Back or Making More Money (MMM). Thinking of how Rebecca Bloomwood saved her money, really made me laugh until fell off my chair. It's more than just shopping as a shopaholic but solving the problems to make both ends meet too. (Reminder: Please wear seatbelts when you're reading Sophie Kinsella's book)

Makes me wonder sometimes, a shopaholic like me. You know, how I'm going to be like after I have got myself a job? Having a complete set of Juicy Couture bags which with lot of debts? (In case you don't know, an authentic Juicy Couture bag costs about RM 1k+)

It's kinda true you know. When you go to a shopping mall and plan to shop, you can't really find things you like. But when you're in need of cash in critical time, here come the SALES! It's a kill when you see things are tagged at 50%-70% discount being compared to the price you bought a while ago.

Hmm~ Okay, make it this way. Guys should know the Suave brand right? My mum loves to buy my brother Suave formal attire, well of course my brother has to bear with my mum's choice although he doesnt seem to like them. Cerewet betul. He tends to buy pricey clothes from brands like G2000 which are damn expensive. (Next time wash your G2000 yourself ok?)

So usually a Suave formal shirt is about RM 40-50, or maybe higher. I forgot how much already but let's assume that price. Sometimes the shirts are sold with a free tie together. During Jusco sales, guess how much is the price?

It's only RM10 for a Suave formal shirt with a free tie!
(It's about RM 11 actually but let's round it up)

With the same price, you can buy 4-5 during sales. If your plan was to get a white shirt, you can get a blue, green, red and yellow during the sales additionally. How nice! Seriously, even a cheap shirt in pasar malam will cost you about RM 15. You can replace your attire with Suave formal shirt (with a free tie too) everyday, even as your pyjamas. It's something that is alluring for everyone if you love shopping but sometimes you'll hate it when it comes at the wrong time.

Well this does not apply to those who are well off. You might think that I tend to be over sensitive because I'm taking Accounting course? It's not about being so over about the figures but it's a knowledge that I think everyone should know. Whether an accountant or not, one should know about financing money.

There are a lot of things to learn, to live with frugality with satisfaction is kinda hard but it's a challenge! =)

Society Day

Society Day! Been really busy with society stuff recently during semester break. So yeah been a year in college already. It feels kinda weird that we are seniors now, when I still feel like a freshie. (Stay young is good ok?)

Woke up very very early in the morning, I usually wake up at ten or eleven in the morning. (Semester break mah~) Dressed up formally and kinda excited to go to college. The first thing of the day, camwhoring!

Right. I was in the car and my dad drove rather fast so the picture turned out to be a bit blur. I know I'm not good in posing but don't laugh ok? And I have gained my weight so don't ask why I look so plump. Seriously, my mum feeds me like a pig during the semester break as if she's gonna sell me off soon. =(

The day before Society Day. All of us were at Sport Complex setting up the booth for our counter. So much thanks to our cameraman for his pictures.

The Sport Complex.

This is the polystyrene I've done. Nice? (muka tembok~)

I'm not very sure whether the threads are visible. But I think it's really cool! The theme colours were black and silver, what do you think? Really thanks for the compliments though we did not win the best decoration award. All of us are business school students and it's kinda hard for us to do something like talented art students. But still I love our board! Hehe~

Ooooow~ Forgot to mention, did you notice the little guy on the table? He's my boyfriend. Comel tak? =)

So back to the Society Day. So it's been a year in CGS. I joined this society last year during Society Day and now I'm there promoting CGS to the new students. It's vividly emblazoned in my mind, yeah the feeling as a new student.














It was a tiring day and I lost my voice. It's not easy to tell the new students about Career thing like "Hey first year student, you have to be aware of your Career path right now and forge yourself for a better future!"

People tend to think that CAREER sounds like big word and a bit too early to take this into account. When I was a first year student, I tend to think that "Hey no worries lah, everything will be sorted out soon as I count my years in college" Then I realise things will not be sorted out itself, we are grown up pre-adults now and we are fully reponsible for the consequences of our choices.

After secondary school, it feels kinda excited as freshmen. When you approach the college, they will tell you to go for this for one year, go for that for two years, sit for exam, then graduate and get a good job and hallelujah!

The truth is, it's not that easy. It's not like you're going to succeed with the qualification you have. The career path you're taking is very important, whether it suits you or not. When people say that "Hey Accounting course very good leh, high salary later you know?" Yeaaah high salary, good job, good life, etc. A successful career does not mean a career with high salary but with many more elements. And it's not like we are guaranteed a successful career after we graduate.

There are a lot of things concerned. As we pursue our studies, we are a few steps closer to our future career path. There might be turnabouts where changes take place, and some might even change your entire future career. So okay, back to the Society Day.

It was a tiring day. But we were really happy. It's time to go beyond the boundaries and I believe that we are able to pull off more this year!

Me.. Korean?

Quite a long day today. I was quite lazy actually but still I went out to buy some board stuff for Society Day.

There is a new guy who works at the bookstore. He approached me and I was rather surprised. I felt a bit weird and funny but this was what that happened.

He: Are yeeeuu KOREA?
Me: Huh? Nope. *staring at him in wonder*
He: Yeeuu here.. few days ago?
Me: Yea, few days ago
He: So, yeuu chinese?
Me: Yep, do I look like korean? 0.o
He: Yeuu know Chinese?
Me: Yea. (of course!)
He: How yeuu know Chinese?
Me: Cause I went to Chinese School. (LOL)

*He paused for a while, kinda shocked and dissapointed that I'm not Korean I guess*

So later we had a little chat in Chinese, I find it's quite hard for both of us to converse with each other like that. Kinda hard for me to understand his English and he were utterly nervous. LOL.

He said he saw me there few days ago. He would like to know me but his manager was around so he wrote me a note. The funny thing is, when he finished the note I had already gone back home. He mentioned a bit about himself and asked a bit about me. He is playing for Malaysian Basketball team, will be going to Beijing few months later for Olympic.

Well I have no idea that Malaysia are actually qualified for basketball in Olympic. Is that true? No idea! It's kinda strange about the note thing and when he asks me to go out for a tea. He actually offered to come over my house and fetch me. This is like OMG. I told him how a busy-person I am, holding the polystyrene my hand. I guess the polystyrene says it all. =)

(Hey the thing is really big and kinda hard to carry it around)

Do I look like KOREAN?! Sigh.
So anyway, it's a long day. Loads of stuff to do!
Next week is going to be a busy week!

势键，诚心祝福你

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昨晚失眠了。

眼睛好红肿好累。昨晚晚上我们到了他的家，遇到许多好久不见的朋友们。
大家保持沉默，默默地为他祈祷。

势键，能认识您是我的荣幸。
真的，我并不觉得失去了一个朋友。
因为在大家的心里，您永远都是我们的好朋友。
以后虽然无法再见面，聊天。。
您永远是我们心目中的好朋友

真心祝福您 ~

无奈即绝望
如今有点崩溃的我
对外界的一切觉得很陌生

任性天真的我
始终无法接受残酷的事实
然而还是选择相信奇迹
抱着希望相信明天会更美好
偶然地打造了自己天真的哲理

还记得第一次认识你的时候
身为新生的我向您要签名
当时的您是我的学长
那时您就玩弄了我却不签名
当时的我气得满肚子都是怨气
你还说我写错了您的名字
是键盘的 键
我竟然写成健康的 健

知道你喜欢周杰伦
平时也很爱演他的手势
好像他的第一号忠心粉丝
虽然你并不像周杰伦那样酷
不过现在若可以的话 好想再看一次
你拿手 自我陶醉的周杰伦手势

记得你的MSN名字(X.X)
经常说那名字很特别
因为那和他的想法很相似
而我却讽刺你说 大吉利事！
干嘛没事做想到这些不吉利的事情

现在想起来
其实一点都不好笑
很后悔当时的自己
怎么没狠狠地骂你一顿
难道活着不是很好吗？

你在我心目中
就好像我的哥哥那样
一直以来都很尊敬的哥哥
还记得那时我们玩了家庭游戏
我也不知不觉当了你的女儿
感觉上好像好冤枉
因为你这位爸爸每天都欺负女儿

然后就过了很久很久
你毕业后我们就很少联络了
直到接到消息的时候
大家似乎昏厥过去
然而大家还会在放学后去探望你
和你说说话 告诉你周杰伦出新专辑了
不要睡太久哦 起来咯

已经隔了一段很长的时间
我上网会看看你的MSN会不会亮青
偶尔会写部落格替你打气
自从你出事后我梦见你两次
第一次是在我们去医院探望你的前一晚
第二次是在几个月前
我醒了后就哭了

大家都希望总有一天你会醒过来
尤其是你的父母和亲友 还有朋友们
虽然并没有时常去探望你
大家都很关心 偶尔会探听您的消息
期待你醒过来的那一天

我们都以你为荣
其实这段时间你很努力
很努力的坚持地度过每一天
你的离去 是一种解脱
不管你到哪里
要好好活下去
开开心心渡过每一天哦

势键
诚心祝福你

In Case I have Amnesia..

If I happen to have amnesia in the future, I would write something down right now to remind me of the person I am. Well just in case I don't remember who I am. (You have to read Sohphie Kinsella's book, it's awesome!)

CHECKLIST FOR MYSELF

First, your name is Valerie.

You don't really like your Chinese name, loads of issues.

Loads of funny names people addressed you. *swt*

You wish that you have myopia. You love stylish spectacles!

You wish to curl your hair but you're just too lazy for curly hair.

You are on diet, but you eat a lot.

You love mushroom! Abalone mushroom! =D

You love pasta too! Everything that your mum cooks.

You don't like peas.

You don't like sweets/tidbits. Not really into junk food.

You are a shopaholic.

You love shopping but you don't have enough money to spend.

You need a new wardrobe to fit in your clothes.

You love ribbon. Shirts, shoes, bags, anything with ribbon.

You love heels but you're not very good in them.

You love simple colours: black, white, green, pink.

Your favourite cartoon character: Mickey

You are so crazy over Disney and Mickey stuff.


Oouh wait, I think I left out something very important.

Val.. YOU DON'T LIKE COCKCROACH.

Looking for a Online Boutique?

Recently I'm really into online shopping. Well you can google loads of online boutiques but to be honest, it's really hard to find a good one. Agree?

I mean it requires loads of efforts to come out with one. Designing the website, photoshoting, publicity, etc. I must say it's not easy to manage a online boutique.

I have found a nice online boutique, namely Ugly Ducking. Cute name huh? I love the name and the design of the boutique. It's so sweet! The owner of the boutique (aka future boutique owner), Siew Li is a friendly person. She makes every endeavor to satisfy the customers. Such a nice person she is, wish her all the best in her boutique.

Take a look at the boutique, the design of the clothes are unique so as it is to get them elsewhere. Siew Li's approaches in publicity and presentation of the clothes totally reflect her passionate for blogging and online boutique. Plus, the price is very reasonable and is definitely worth you money. (with add on promotion too!)

With this, I do my shopping without going out to the shopping malls. You can have your clothes delivered to your doorstep. How convenient it is! Besides, the clothes are sold in limited quantity and with the good response, it runs out very quickly everytime she brings in new clothes.

I would recommend this boutique to the girls out there. If you're a shopaholic, don't miss this out. Check out the link below and my sidebar, the design is gorgeous! =)

UPDATED 10/5

Received my parcel this afternoon. It was really fast, thanks to the post express given by Siew Li. Thanks dear! I was very suprised and happy to see my stuff are nicely packaged. I did a lot of online shopping and have received a lot of parcels recently, and I must comment on this one.

Everything is nicely packaged as you can see in the picture. It has a cute sticker of the boutique's name too. Awesome! Such a sweet boutique, dont you think so?

Such a sweet place for shopping. Too sweet to be a "ugly duckling".