Worshipping Ancestors

Kinda tired. Wasn't feeling well today, a bit annoyed with gastric. Thankfully, it went pretty smooth today though the weather was sizzling hot.

We started our journey before the crack of down. For the so called "sweeping the graves" occasion, we headed to Ipoh to worship ancestral graves.

I have never seen my grandpa before. But I suppose that my grandpa was a great(x2) man cause my dad is a great man. Well I guess my grandpa was quite handsome too. =P

Somehow, it makes me wonder sometimes..
Do our ancestors know our presence when we worship them?
Do we worship them as commemoration and tribute?
Do we worship them for blessing purpose?
Do they know that we love them?

Grandpa, Great-grandpa, great-great grandpas..
You might not know me, well I guess I might not know you all as well. Just wanna let you all know that I'm really thankful for being given such a great life. It's not flawless but I'll persevere the flaws.

(I'm quite a stubborn person, I wonder if that's the so called "fortitude" inherited from our family)

Happy Birthday My Dear

The present was veiled in silence and well kept since the first day I bought it, despite my eagerness to tell the whole world about it.

So yea, today is my dear's birthday. Although my dear might not be faithful 24/7, but I'm okay with it. (used to it already~hehe) Today we went out dating after our 27 minutes tutorial class. It was supposed to be one and half hour, but somehow it ended early.

*Psst*
If you're going to Secret Recipe for birthday, please do remember to bring lighter. They do have candle but they do not have lighter. We requested for a candle to be on my dear's cheesecake, and..

A raspberry cheesecake with an unlit candle on top.

Few minutes later, the waitress came out from kitchen with a lighted candle. I guess she lighted up the candle from the stove. Headed towards the raspberry cheesecake, she made the flare of the candle glowed in much radiance.


My dear looked a bit because of the candle thing, but she's really happy. You can see from the grin on her face, showing how starving she was; until she could eat the candle just like that.

"Wei, faster la.. I want to eat my cheesecake leh~"

After the birthday song, we took some pictures. Poor little thing, the birthday girl was so hungry but she had to take pictures first. =D

(Just showing off my peach cake. Hehe! Yummy!!)

Me and my dear - my peach cake and her raspberry cheesecake.

now I realise something in this picture. Career Fair helpers. XD

After the cakes, we went for jalan-jalan. And I noticed this..

It's like you're walking on a brownish parquet with elephant glue on your soles. The glue pulls off your soles from the parquet and you will end up your day with this, the parquet heels.

And then, this is.. OMB tall!
(OMG stands for Oh my God, and OMB stands for Oh my Buddha) =.='ll

I tried it on and it was fantastic! I felt much taller with the heels on. Now i understand why girls love heels! I wonder if i can get one of these soon? Anyway it's good to be tall.

Did I forget something? Oh ya, the most interesting part of the day! We went to a shop selling hair ornaments.

Wanna know what's hot on today's fashion world?
Wanna have a brand new hairstyle with only RM4.20?
It's simple and yet you will certainly out stand other girls with this hairstyle.

Our model for today is.. the birthday girl!

You can really tell that she's really happy today, totally mesmerised with her new hairstyle. It wasn't my idea okay, though I did contribute a little. (@.@ I'm such a GOOD girl lar)

It was a simple birthday celebration.
Happy Birthday again my dear!! *muakzz*

Vulnerable

Formally, vulnerable means the capable of being physically or emotionally wounded. Informally, it means being inconsolable.

The sentiment of vulnerable is when I couldn't do anything when people I cared are wounded, to be either physically or mentally. Sometimes it just makes me feel blameworthy and realised how vulnerable I am. Wished that I could do something to make things better.

I quite a stubborn person. There are a few things in my life that I am sturdily resolved on. I hate myself for being like this sometimes. I was fooled by my foolishness in the end.

Sometimes, being overly concerned may lead to disapointments.
To be in the state of apathy is what I would not want to be, but I do not have a choice.

Keep Holding On

It's not apologetic for being imperfect. Everyone was born with different aptitude and propensity towards facets of life.

When I was young, I love to imagine. Looking at the illustration of heaven in cartoons, I envisioned heaven. Yeah, floating heaven on a big cloud. I saw babies on a queue, taking turns to be sent out of the heaven; the so called "born" process. Not all the babies are physically perfect, some with defective organs, some are disabled.

Doesn't everyone deserve a fair chance?
Why am I blessed with a healthy body, but not the others as well?
How are they going to survive, the chance of living is almost impossible!

I wished that there were democracy in heaven. I would vote for the opposition for the unfairness of human's fate! It doesn’t make any sense at all. The chances to survive are brittle. Some of babies do not have the chance to breathe more than three seconds upon their birth. Some of them can only survive through medications.

They do not have time to blame the God, for they are desperately grasping for breath every single second. To bear with ache of medication and seduction of the Devil of Death are unfathomable for the lucky ones like us. A slight slip may cause them to sleep forever.

Try to imagine. When you are reading this, you're fussing about your life.

Why do I deserve to live on earth?
Where's God when I need him so much? I need his guidance!
I should have died a long time ago!
There's not point of living on this earth anymore!

Now try to imagine another person has died due to certain sickness. Someone from somewhere on this globe.

Why do I deserve to live on earth?
Why can’t I deserve a chance to live for another day?

Where’s God when I need him so much? I need his guidance!
God is tempting me up there, but I don’t want to be with him. I can do well without him.

I should have died a long time ago!
I should have breathed as much as I can, I regret this so much!

There’s not point of living on this earth anymore!
Why can’t God grant me a chance to live for another day?

I'm a hopeless brat. I have nothing to survive for another day.
I do not have any plans for my future, but to keep holding on is the only thing I could do. To survive for another day is my greatest achievement.

Don't ever think about quitting your life. There are a lot people out there wished that they were given a fair chance to survive. Do not give up your life no matter what. Death is omnipresent of lifecycle. As long as we live, breathe as much as we can.

You know, the greatest achievement I have in my life is..
To be able to live until now. =)

Odd

These days I feel much like devious alienation with some people around me. Or maybe I do not understand them well enough, as a friend. Oddly, I feel strange about certain things.

First of all, I do not think that I'm unapproachable.

Secondly, I think I'm an easy-going person when it comes to friends. Everything is fine to me. I’m more than pleased to lend a hand whenever my friends need help.

Thirdly, is my DKNY Be Delicious unbearable? Or does it make people hungry with savory green apple aroma? (According to yikvoon lah~)

I'm fine actually. Just trying to figure out what's on recently. Maybe it is because I don't really feel like talking recently. The so called "recession" part of my sentiment cycle. Could it be the reason? I have no idea. I’m really tired these days, too tired for anything.

But thankfully, I have a bunch of thoughtful friends. I feel much better whenever I'm with them. Thanks for being so considerate these days; I know that I’ve been worn out these days.

Maybe.. you just don't know me well.
I have nothing to say then.

Big Eyes - Thanks Mr Tan!

Generally cosmetics are meant for ladies. But fortunately or unfortunately, I'm not eligible to be entitled one, due to my so called "ladylike". (Hope that Mr Liew is not reading this)

Today, the make-up artist Mr Tan from Elianto Company gave us a talk on "Personal Grooming". At the end of the talk, they had a demonstration session.

Mr Tan - the makeup artist doing a makeover with a student.

I was watching and he suddenly turned to me and said, "Hey I can help you to make your eyes bigger." And then I was very excited and went for a try.




It's like magic!! OMG, I couldn't believe that I have those eyes! It's twice times bigger than my mata sepet.

Hui Min and I were so indulged with our eyes. Hehe! So happy~~

Mum.. I want bigger eyes!!

Me

I admit that I've been a little grumpy these days. I tried to blog in the best state of cheerfulness in my previous post but I failed. I couldn't feel the pleasure like what I had enjoyed during my one month holiday.

(I'll revise that post later..)

I'm a tough person; well at least I tried my best to be one. I might look as if I'm a happy-go-lucky person with sanguine disposition, but actually I'm not. I'm just a typical person with an inconsolable heart.

Contradicted feelings have been evoked in a manner that is beyond my attentiveness. I started to blame myself for my childishness. Contriteness makes us feel apologetic of what we had done and also makes us feel that we're a step closer to flawlessness.

I realised that I'm not as tough as I thought I was.

Langkawi Trip

Few days ago we went to Langkawi with CGS fellas. The word "fellas" is abbreviation for Jordan, Yong, Hui Min, Kien, MJ, Chee Seng, Mr Liew and me. =)

I'm so overwhelmed by the luxuriant tropical paradise, off set by noteworthy sandy beach and duty-free shopping heaven. We lodged at Langkasuka Resort and the best thing was, it's near to the beach! hehe!

Paddy farm is much similar to Kedah's vast expanse of paddy field. I felt like going back to Kedah again. Ahh..love the green in its soothing manner!

Underwater World is an immense aquaria with loads of marine fishes. I'm not very good at the species but they are unique on its own. (My knowledge is restriced for nemo fish only) =.='ll

Free-duty shopping was really fun! Very much thanks to our host, we had the best of everything. We enjoyed ourselves and had fun! It was a wonderful trip!! =)