Vacant

I feel a sense of vacant and insecure. I feel so worthless and do not know what else I should do now. I do not know who should I rely on. I do not know where I should find a shoulder to cry on.

I won't shop so much. I can cut down my shopping.
I won't nag him and bully him anymore.
I won't stay up late and let him worried.
I won't drink so much coffee.
I won't be choosy not taking cough medicine.

I can do a lot of things, although it sounds silly and doesn't make sense. But please bless him and get well soon.

I do not know what I can do now.