Saturday, October 25, 2008

Result Released

I am never a techie. No matter how hard I tried, I will never get A for that kind of subjects for the past 3 semesters. I wonder what went wrong, honestly. Could it be our coursework? Hate that coursework so much. =(

Anyway, it doesn't matter. I am still me. My CGPA is dwindling from time to time, I might not be able to secure my scholarship next year.

I'm not boasting. I got A for accounting papers since the first semester, each of it like IA, FOA, FA, etc. Anything that has to do with the statements, ledger, etc. I obtained better result for the subjects that is related to ACCA, that includes my taxation too. HOWEVER, I had great difficulty in my management accounting subjects.

I am not sure if I'm suitable for CIMA. I do not have any sense of basic intelligence nor common sense for management accounting. It's all about costing, budgeting, forecasting. I don't know, maybe I am not convinced enough. I was not convinced enough during my fundamentals in management accounting.

I'm not a genius, been telling this for like a million of times. Straight As in SPM doesn't mean anything, please. Some people are just so ridiculous to think that I am a genius or something. I study like a freaking mad person, that's what I told my sister (she is having exam trauma now).

I accept the fact that I am not a genius. Yes it feels bad and terrible not to be able to achive good results. But this is me, and my result.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Us Against The World

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like the world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

There’ll be days
We’ll be on different sides but
That doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I can’t keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I’m with you
I can feel so unbreakable

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We’re not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we’ve got
And we’ve got what we need alright
We’re doing something right

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Us against the world
Yeah it’s us against the world, baby
Us against the world tonight

Friday, October 17, 2008

Hypocrisy

I am easy going. I believe that I am never a discerning censor with overly finicky approach. And I am never good in expressing my true feelings. Correct me if I am wrong.

I can bear with a lot of things but NEVER with hypocrisy. Yeah it goes around and we know that it is the nature of the human being. Feigning is not a crime, and it is not a bad thing either. It can be good in some ways. But no matter how good you are in feigning, sincerity says it all.

I remembered in BC, Andrew asked us what's our favourite English word. There are so many words in English. My answer is "Chemistry". It's not really like I love chemistry subject, I'm an art stream student. The chemistry between people, that's what I mean.

I am a typical human being with feelings. I tend to be easily offended and hurt, not by acts of people but by the disguise of people. I appreciate people surrounding me with heartfelt gratitude, although I am not good in expressing my thoughts. I really do.

I can help and do a lot of things without asking for anything return, because I believe that sincerity is the most valued asset. But there are times my existence is being relied on without a sense of genuineness. I always plead for the least of understanding and yet I never succeed in getting any of them. There is a sense of belonging, without sincerity.

For me, I treat everyone wholeheartedly, but when I find that a person is not being genuine (the feeling of belonging where people be with you for the sake of depending on you) I will be very upset and in the end lose confidence. That's the end of it. Although later on I might be friendly or laughing like a crazy fella, but actually I am not.

The blemish is there, it engraves somewhere deep inside. Things might have changed, but never my confidence. You might be happy taking advantage on people, but you will lose something much more valued in the end. Something that people have aversion to.

Never exploit a person's feeling under pretense of intimacy.
Be gracious to yourself, and people surrounding you.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Vacant

I feel a sense of vacant and insecure. I feel so worthless and do not know what else I should do now. I do not know who should I rely on. I do not know where I should find a shoulder to cry on.

I won't shop so much. I can cut down my shopping.
I won't nag him and bully him anymore.
I won't stay up late and let him worried.
I won't drink so much coffee.
I won't be choosy not taking cough medicine.

I can do a lot of things, although it sounds silly and doesn't make sense. But please bless him and get well soon.

I do not know what I can do now.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Useless Me

I could not sleep today. Feeling worthless, I could not stop crying.

Dear God, if you could hear me.
Please take away all the sickness from him.
Please take away all the ache suffered by him.
Please bless him with a healthy body and smile.

I could barely see him smile or laugh. I feel so useless that I could not do anything, not even the easiest thing to make him smile.

I feel the prick with ache, deep deep inside.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Genting Trip - Buffet Dinner and Dreamz (Did a good deed!)

I'm back! Back from my long vacation in Genting Highlands. At least I felt it was a long trip because I'm very tired. So we went there on the first day of Raya. I dont know where to start actually about the whole traveling thing. It's a nice family trip. The main purpose of the traveling is for the buffet dinner and to watch the Dreamz show.


Me and my sis camwhoring. My sis did a lot of camwhoring in this trip, somehow like her sister huh? XD



The Outdoor Themepark

Space Shot. One of my favourite. Hehe!

Buffet. It's really nice where there are different types of cuisines: Western, Japanese, Chinese, Nyonya, West Asian. I absolutely love the Japanese cuisine. Well, the great thing about buffet is you can eat how many your appetite can hold. There were chefs at there like doing the Tapanyaki style and you can choose whatever you want. Grilled Salmon, Chicken, Beef.. Everything you can eat! Sushi too!

The great thing about buffet is they have chefs at each section preparing the food upon request. At there, the chefs will cook right in front of you upon your request. Like Chinese cuisine, there are a lot of raw vegetables and ingredients. You have to just pick up what you wanna eat and just hand it to the chefs and they will cook it for you just in few minutes! Amazing huh?

Me and my dear mum. She wasn't looking at the camera, I guess she was looking for more food at the other side.



My sis and I. Outside the buffed venue with nice scenery.

So after the buffet dinner, there are fireworks show at the open area of the car park. Raya special programme I guess. So my brother, my sister and I went there and watched it. I have never been to any public countdowns because I don't really like to squeeze between the crowd but it's really okay at Genting. You know the environment, the cool air, the whole aroma thing is really smothing. Actually I had some videos but I was really thinking about posting it here because it's full of my sister's scream. =.='ll






My sis took the pictures. The video is much more nicer I think.


So after the fireworks, we rushed to The Pavilion to watch the Dreamz show. My dad got us some seats in front, really nice! The show was quite okay, the great thing about it is we got the chance to view the magic right in front of our eyes.

It's quite expensive. My bro said he almost fell asleep during the show. Sleepy head! Slept for the whole day already still wanna sleep. =.=


Look at this picture. My brother said the body doesn't fit my sis's head as her head is as big as the tiger. Hahaha true huh? XD

Here I go too. Haha I'm so childish.


The second day at First World. Look at the picture you could see that I was really tired because I did not have enough sleep the night before in the hotel.

We noticed a nice shop. See the big bowl of mee on top there? It's really cute like a real bowl of mee, look at the water vapour! Haha~


The haunted house. I went there once and I swore I will not go for it anymore. Scary!




My sis and I went to watch "Painted Skin" movie. We got a free snack upon purchase of the ticket, a chocolate bar. It's a nice and moving movie, I really like it.



You know the restaurant at the First World there? Somewhere near the stage, there's a ShangHai restaurant. This is Durian Pancake. It doesn't look like pancake at all, it's very delicious. The golden yellow filling below the icy durian cream is durian. OMG!

thank you so much. best of luck. my name is jenny. we live in filipinos we live in kl since 1985. thank you again (SMS sent by the lovely lady)

Ohh yeah! My mum picked up an I-Mobile camera phone. It's a nice black sleek phone with luminious green line at the sides. Something like SE K850, quite nice but I have never seen it here. My brother says it's a Singapore phone.

We was trying to contact the owner of the phone but we couldnt as the owner somehow blocked the simcard after 15 attempts of calling. So we could not call the owner using the phone. So I sent a message to the owner with my handphone, in hope that he or she was still in Genting. I received a call immedietly, it turns out to be a lady owner from foreign countries. (Sounds like a friend of mine from Phillipines who are working at Embassy of Cuba now)

Well I was correct, she's from Phillipines and been living in KL about twenty years. So we met up at the lobby of the hotel and I returned it to her. She thought she would not be able to find her phone again, she was really grateful and happy! And so were we! =)

You might say, "you could have kept the phone!" Yeah very true, but I can actually feel how sad and panic was the owner. If I were the lady, I would burst into tears and cry like a big baby. What goes around comes around, we were glad that we did the right thing.

It was a wonderful trip! Although it's not like we went to somewhere far, but it's nice traveling with family.