I'm in..

Tahniah. Anda berjaya dipanggil untuk menghadiri temuduga PILN 2007 tajaan Jabatan Perkhidmatian Awam Malaysia.

Kill me, someone kill me! Another interview.. I don't know what to say, I should be really grateful for that because I'm the chosen one? My first interview in Taylor sucks, seriously. I don't think I'll be shortlisted for the next interview. Argh..

Okay, back to this coming interview. I don't know..really. I don't think I'm going to make it. I screwed up my first one in Taylor and I don't think I'm going to make it. The interview will be held in Putrajaya. The scene will be like this..

The officers will speak a topic. For example, Patriotism. Then we discuss with a group of members about an hour. They will sit back and observe. It is not about speech or being talkative, it is all about leadership on how to convice the others to talk, not ourselves.

This could be the toughest interview in my entire life. I really hope that miracle does happen, somehow. I guess is time for homework and preparations..

God bless everyone out there.

An Anonymous

Recently someone (I don't really familiar with) sms-ed me. Even though I know the existence of the person, but we never talk. Argh I was freak out and, I'm a bad person. Please tell me if I'm right.

The story starts when an anonymous sms-ed me..

How's ur result?
Sorry but who r u?

I'm K from 5xx class. So how's ur result?
Ohh..um, I got XX for my SPM. How about u?

Wow, so strong le..i got XX for SPM. So where u study?
Maybe I'm goin to tarc.. (What is the "strong" represents?)

I'm studying at there right now. Hey do you have SPM reference books?
Ohh.. What reference book u want? I gave away my books already.. (Okay a stranger sms me, trying to be a nice person for a reason? To ask for reference books?)

I need BM, BI, SAINS, MATHS, SEJ, MORAL. Do you have it?
Nope..sorry. Why do u need those? For what course need those? (Just want to know why we need Science in college, for Art Subjects?)

Why I want to tell u? u also dun tell me ur D.O.B..
u didn't ask? btw I dunno u really well.. (Hey u didn't ask okay, and what is so great about your course anyway? As if I'm dying to know about it?)

Tell ur DOB la..then I will tell u what I study in tarc..
*etc*

Actually there's more but that was the last msg I replied because I don't feel like talking that person. So childish. Is like toddles in nursery, you give me your candy and I lend you my book.

Are you trying to be a nice person to know me or are you taking advantage on me? The reason you msged me is for the books? What makes you think that I have those?

You didn't ask about my birthday. If you ask I will tell, I will never be childish for not telling or selling off myself. Okay, for nothing I was being accused of being selfish? What is all the fuss about?

About the course. What is the big deal about it? I'm just asking the reason you want some books from me. Maybe I could help a little, yea who knows? I'm not desperate to know what you are studying right now. By the way, I don't know you really well. Seriously, you are a stranger. And, I don't really want to know about your course. Stop the fuss, please.

Later on I received msgs from that person but I don't feel like replying. As if I'm so desperate for the person? For god sake! I do not owe anyone anything! What makes people think that I owe something to them? I don't like the innocent feeling being accused, desperate or dying for anyone.

However, I felt a great guilt for being a bad person abandoning the person. I've tried to be a nice person, but I just can't stand it. Argh I hate myself..

The Reborn

Today I went to the Bank Pertanian to withdraw the NS allowance. Just a paltry of RM300, plus RM0.05 of interest.

(Even RM0.05 can't cover the parking fee,duh..)

I didn't blog for quite some time. The main reason is because, I'm so tired and lazy to blog. The codes, all in a mess! I'm so lazy to do something about it. By the way I don't know what went wrong, I'm a noob in computing stuffs, esp HTML.

I've re-edited my blog. And did some spring-cleaning too. Some older post and comments are gone.. Sobzz! Anyway, the newly reborn of my blog..

I'm going to keep it simple. Simple is simply the best~!

Being Left Behind

Can anyone here allow me to recoup what I've lost for these days? This seemed to be perpetually gone, for me. This is really getting me into tears..

You guys dyed hair, worked, studied, coupled, got car license, etc. The feeling getting home is very terrible, being far apart of the world. How is it like, to stay away from friends, where the others had done something awesome where as you are being left behind?

I don't want to go to school tomorrow.. I don't want to face the crowd..