Friday, June 27, 2008

The little sketch of mine

Been rather frustrated with the Streamyx lately, THANK GOD that everything is okay right now. So..yeah!

Life without the Internet is frustrating, especially when the assignments come in. Ah assignments! Loads of them, and to cope with studies at the same time is a tiring task. Been really tired recently, physically.

I'm sure that this is rather familiar for some people. A teacher walks into a classroom. She draws a dot on the board and she asks her students. "What can you see on the board?"

"A dot" The students answered.
"Cant you see the board?" She replied.

The board is big in size and yet only the dot caught the eyes of the people. Does the tiny dot matters that much? It's still a board right, where plays a more significant role than the tiny dot.

It all depends on how we perceive on the particulars in our lives. If we are over picky of something, we might lose out in the end. Nothing is flawless. Sometimes we just have to consent the fact that we all have flaws. We will be better off if we think it as a whole.

If I were to have a board of my own, mine would be scribbled with loads of crapping stuff.
A tortoise sketch I guess?

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Nagged

I went home today not feeling right. The heat permeated the sight and I was shivering in freeze, weird. I laid down in bed for the whole afternoon, not being able to reply my msn nudges and messages.

I was praying hard that I would not fall sick, in the critical time right now. My mum would nag me like a little girl if I'm sick. The real thing is, I can't afford to be sick now when everything is in such a mess.

None of us feels any much better with so many things in mind. Maybe we are not good enough, or maybe totally blur of what we're supposed to do, whatever the reason is we are never going through it alone. I believe that.

I don't feel good recently, not really. I feel very weak and yet never give up to be as possitive as possible. It hurts a lot to be turned down, not being knocked down by stress but other matters.

The one that hurts the most is not about bearing the responsibility and stress, BUT simply not be able to work together as a team and being assumed..

Not being understanding
Being protected for good
Knowing more is superfluous

Thursday, June 5, 2008

孤单作战的感觉

开始觉得最近好喜欢哭
感觉上自己背负着很多负担
或许是自己太多心了吧
似乎有点过度地在乎身边的小细节

有时候真的感觉到自己好傻
明明知道其实就没有人在乎
却不知不觉被别人利用
不可以说利用吧
应该是说
我太笨了

其实我真的很想很自私地保护自己
不过就是行不通 好难过
孤单作战的感觉
真的很寂寞