A girl's soul

Looking through the mirror
Aching with sadness
Feeling torn apart

I'm a girl
Who wants to be free
Who wants something more
Who wants to be blessed with a nice look
Everyday people look at me
Criticizing and
Getting cold looks as I walked

Somehow i felt being cut on my vein
Holding tears inside
Covering my face with a smiling mask
It was hardly noticeable

I've seen
How guys flirt on pretty-cute girls
How girls flirt on good-looking guys
How people judge other people
Ignoring the within

I'm a girl
Hiding in the darkness
Being haunted by the cruel criticism

Sick

No chances to be happy
Never feeling well or "okay"
I'm a patient who is trying to get better
Yet there is no remedy in sight
To cure my illness

I'm sick
Sick of being lost in life
No directions towards paths and roads
Sick of seeking the way out
Out of the never ending problems

I'm sick
Sick of hiding behind the disguise
Between truth and lies
Sick of the cuts
The cuts that make me falling helplessly

I'm sick
Sick of wearing a mask
A fake smiling mask across my face
Sick of being too soft hearted
Holding the tears and thoughts for myself

I'm sick
Sick of running out of inspiration
Tonight seems to be a never ending night
The darkness breaking through the light
Swirling to a world of peace and tranquility

A night

As the sky gets deeper
The full moon gleamed
A blanket of stars covered the sky

It's a meek night
As the loneliness sweeping in
I lay there
Seeking for the brightest diamond
Making a wish upon them

It's a silent night
As the sky growing ominously darker
I hunched forward
Putting all the words together like scrambled egg
With tears collected in my eye lashes

As the storm rumbles
I'm shivering in despair
Growing up and conquering all dreams
In hope to reach the brightest star

It's a perfect night
Felling asleep leaning my hand
Drifting to the dream of ecstasy